To Love and Be Loved

Some would say it is good loving somebody when that somebody
loves you back. To be in love and be loved in return is the only thing
a heart desire. Part of that is true. Love is a very intense feeling
a man can handle. Love is pure, love is unbreakable.
But love is also fragile and vulnerable.
The fact that love makes a man wants more than just to be loved
can not be denied. Love makes a man becomes greedy, his heart fills
with anger, jealousy and all that feelings. Love conquers it all. 

A Love Letter

I love you and you love me. That is the most indescribable feeling
in the world I would say. I don’t know why? why in the world HE puts
you in my life in the first place?

Because it feels like you are my one true love. Is it? 

I am way over this thinking. Drowning myself with all this thoughts,
to even contemplate about it would just makes me weak.
Because i love you with all my heart,it has not changed a thing.
Since we met, since we make a ‘vow’ to complete each other, 

since we give ourselves to each other. No, it never change a tid bit of my love towards you. 

But when i felt that suddenly, your love for me fades a little
from time to time, I became angry. Insecure. As if i have no other way to go. 

I could just let you go and find somebody else. But that won’t make things
right. And I am not ready to know if I would be missed
if we go separate ways. I easily trapped into jealousy,
have double thoughts, thinking too much when I shouldn’t be
and that leads us to a fight. I used to remember where we will fight for
this relationship whenever we have issue. Yes we did. What about now?
I am afraid. Afraid that if we got into another fight, again, 

I would lose you forever. 

How in the world can I live when half of my heart
already belongs to someone else? To prevent it from happening,
I stopped asking you so many questions, 

I stopped stalking your FB,
I stopped asking for a thing I know you can hardly give. 

I keep on telling myself to be grateful that at least,
I still have you by my side. Ask me again the question
that you asked one of the night we went out. 

I’m pretty sure it sounded more like
“Is it not enough to have me by your side?”. 

Remember what was my answer? My mistake was,
I didn’t ask you that question right back. 

And if I started asking this question now,
this would definitely leads us into a fight. 

You can be so sweet and also the opposite.
I love you no matter what.